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  • Out of the Shallows(Into the Deep #2)(2) by Samantha Young
  • Later that day, after Mom came back from the cemetery and helped Claudia and I finish out the day, we went home to make dinner. My dad, a mechanic, owned auto shop. He got in from work not too much later and soon we were seated around the dining table.

    A familiar silence fell.

    The clinking of cutlery off plates, glasses against cutlery, the rustle of napkins, the crunch of bread, it amplified the quiet. We didn’t have a whole lot to say to each other these days.

    I was surprised when Dad asked, “You thought any more on taking that exam you need to pass to get into law school?”

    I looked over at Claudia, her eyes rounded at Dad’s question. I shocked her by replying, “I’m taking the LSATs this fall, Dad.”

    Claudia’s eyes bugged out. “You are?”

    She had taken the LSATs in June and passed, but she was under the impression that I was done with pursuing law school.

    Feeling my parents’ gazes burning into my cheeks, I nodded. “I am. As long as I take them in time for February results, I can apply to start law school next fall.”

    “I’m pleased to hear it. I’m sure Claudia will help you study,” Dad said.

    Our eyes met and for the first time in months, Dad’s were almost tender. He was genuinely pleased. To him I was making the right decision.

    I didn’t know if it was the right decision to apply for law school instead of applying to the police academy like I wanted to. That was probably why I hadn’t mentioned anything to Claudia about my decision—I didn’t want someone talking me out of it. The truth was I’d made the decision based on what was best for my family.

    “So am I.” Glancing over at Mom, I saw tears shining in her eyes as she smiled at me.

    Yeah, totally the best decision for my family.

    It gave them peace of mind, and they needed that more than I needed to be a cop.

    Claudia bravely queried, “Are you sure that’s what you want, Charley?”

    “Of course.” I gave her a tight smile.

    Dinner was less awkward than usual after that. Mom and Dad actually engaged in conversation and afterward, instead of shooing me off when I attempted to help clean up, Mom let me.

    I followed her into the kitchen and piled the plates near the trash. As I began scraping off the leftovers Mom said, “I’m proud of this decision, Charlotte.”

    I glanced over at her. “Yeah?”

    She smiled, her eyes misting. They did that a lot these days. Mom had never been a big crier before… well, before… but she welled up at the slightest thing now. “I have to admit it’s been playing in the back of my mind these last few months—you going off to the academy after graduation. Going into the police. It’s not like I haven’t always known you could take care of yourself. Even when you pushed Andie out of the way of Finnegan’s SUV, I worried for about half a second until I saw you. Your leg covered in a cast, bruises all over, and you grinned at us when we walked into that hospital room. All cocky. If that had been Andie, it would’ve shaken her up more. She was a mess after it happened. She followed you around for weeks. It drove you nuts.”

    Just like that, a lump formed in my own throat and I turned away, trying to swallow past the collection of mounting tears. “I remember,” I whispered.

    “I didn’t want you to be a cop. But before this summer, I felt guilty for pressuring you into not going for it. I didn’t want to spend the rest of my life waiting for a phone call in the night to tell me that my daughter had been killed just doing her job. But more than that, I didn’t want my kid to resent me for holding her back. For not supporting her.

    “But then Andie…” She pushed away from the counter and walked toward me. She stopped and reached out to take my hand. “I know it’s selfish to ask you to give up the academy. I know it. I don’t know if you really want to take the LSATs or if you’re just saying it to please your dad and me. If I were a stronger woman, I’d tell you to go for it. Go for your dream. But I’m not. I’m happy you’re not applying to the academy. I’m sorry, but that’s the truth. Please don’t hate me.”

    “I get it. That’s why I’m not doing it.”

    “Do you really want to be a lawyer, though? Because you don’t have to be.”

    I grinned wryly. “I can’t give Dad what he really wants. For the first time in my life, I’ve disappointed him—”

    “Charley—”

    “No, Mom, you know it’s true. I wish I were stronger too. But I’m not, so this is all I can give right now. He’s always wanted me to be a lawyer. I’m taking the LSATs.”

    Mom’s grip on my hand tightened. “One day we’ll be us again.”

    God, I hoped so because right now I really missed my dad and I really missed Andie.

    The tears spilled down my cheeks and I turned away, trying to focus on the dishes. Mom gave me space.

    Just as her footsteps disappeared out of the kitchen, my phone buzzed in my pocket. My stomach flipped unpleasantly at the name on the screen.

    Another missed call from Jake.

    That would be one a day since I’d left Edinburgh.

    Like clockwork the text message came after it.

    You know the drill…

    Despite the fact that I never answered his calls, Jake kept trying, hoping for the day I’d change my mind. Six weeks ago, when it became clear I wasn’t going to answer his calls or texts, he’d sent me a message asking me to at least let him know I was all right. So I did. Every day since, he’d wanted to know at least that.

    Brushing the remaining tears from my cheeks, I replied.

    I’m okay.

    I never asked him if he was okay. There was so much guilt weighing on me, I was taking the coward’s way out with Jake. I’d hurt him. I knew that. I just didn’t want to hear him say it.

    Shoving my phone back in my pocket, I thought how ironic it was that only a few short months ago, I’d made him work his ass off to make up for the way he broke up with me when he was seventeen. Over four years later I’d hurt him just as badly. I’d promised myself I’d never hurt anyone the way Jake hurt me.

    What a difference a few months can make.

    Chapter Two

    “…you against my fallow heart. There’ll be no sympathy from me, my friend. I lost you out in the shallows…”

    For the past twenty minutes I’d been successfully working on a tutorial project, my laptop open on the table, beer beside it, while my friends sat around me listening to indie rock band The Stolen.

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